If the path im taking leads to self destruction so be it. Im living my life my own way, taking risks and making decisions without looking back, no one can change the path i lead only i can.
4 years today... doesnt seem like it at all. seems like it happened yesterday, and sometimes it feels like shes still here, and if i go to her old apartment there she will be making me soup.
Dear Mami, I wish you were here (yes typical saying, just seemed like it fits)
Wish you could see me now. ( yes your spirit and good nature will always be with me in heart i just cant hug a spirit)
Wish i could go back.
Wish i told you i loved you
Wish i never stopped writing poetry after you left
Wish i wasn't who i am now.
Wish i wasn't afraid of death.
all these wishes if only they were heard.
I see you everywhere i go, your hair, the color of your hair,
the breeze sometimes brings your scent along with it.
Your kindness is sometimes shown through other people
I love you forever and always,
Me. your granddaughter
When I die i want my ashes to be thrown from the highest peak of the highest mountain around. somewhere as beautiful as Mother Nature intended the world to be, Where the only living creatures are those of animals not humans. The breeze will take me wherever my lifeless body should end up in.
My soul will live on forever.
4 years today... doesnt seem like it at all. seems like it happened yesterday, and sometimes it feels like shes still here, and if i go to her old apartment there she will be making me soup.
Dear Mami, I wish you were here (yes typical saying, just seemed like it fits)
Wish you could see me now. ( yes your spirit and good nature will always be with me in heart i just cant hug a spirit)
Wish i could go back.
Wish i told you i loved you
Wish i never stopped writing poetry after you left
Wish i wasn't who i am now.
Wish i wasn't afraid of death.
all these wishes if only they were heard.
I see you everywhere i go, your hair, the color of your hair,
the breeze sometimes brings your scent along with it.
Your kindness is sometimes shown through other people
I love you forever and always,
Me. your granddaughter
When I die i want my ashes to be thrown from the highest peak of the highest mountain around. somewhere as beautiful as Mother Nature intended the world to be, Where the only living creatures are those of animals not humans. The breeze will take me wherever my lifeless body should end up in.
My soul will live on forever.
- Location:room-exile
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Never say never
I love it so far. even tho i have p.e for middle block. i guess its not too bad right? well who cares I will take advantage of p.e
so far everything is good. I just need to take night school.
woot
woot
oh and today i found a worm thing in my cereal!
thats creepyy yo!
so far everything is good. I just need to take night school.
woot
woot
oh and today i found a worm thing in my cereal!
thats creepyy yo!
- Location:room
- Mood:
chipper - Music:spongebob
No one has written
third day as a senior its going good.
Im going to love this year. thats the sad part :/ i dnt want to leave yet its way to soon
third day as a senior its going good.
Im going to love this year. thats the sad part :/ i dnt want to leave yet its way to soon
- Location:room
- Mood:
cold - Music:jersey-mayday parade
blankWTF?!?!?!?!
- Mood:
thirsty
blahI want to write to my aunt in ecuador like I used to when I was little but I spend hours each day trying to figure out how to start the letter.
It's been years. and I'm not an expert in writing too much spanish.
I want to be able to write to her like when I was a kid.
It's been years. and I'm not an expert in writing too much spanish.
I want to be able to write to her like when I was a kid.
- Location:room
- Mood: cold
- Music:watching Herbie :D
- Location:room
- Music:bleed black - AFI
I WANT TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM!
CANT STAND HIS STUPID FACE
HIS STUPID ACTIONS
HIS GESTURES
HIS VOIICE!
I JUST HAD THE URGE TO FUCKING GO OVER TO THE NEXT ROOM AND PUNCH THE SHIT OUT OFF HIM LIKE THEM GOOD OL' TIMES WHEN HE WOULD END UP BLEEDING!
BUT...... I decided to take deep breaths and not let his idiotic ways get to me. Im better than this......
Sometimes i wish i didnt have a little brother but there are times that i take it back.
WHAT THE FUCK !
UGHH
he is such an asshole
he protects my dad and gives him praise for stupid things like yelling at my mom
he makes my mom pamper him HOW OLD IS HE? 4? FUCK NO HE IS 14!!
he thinks he can do w.e he wants like come in my room and turn off my laptop IN FRONT OF MY FACE! that really pushes my BIG RED BUTTON!
He talks back to my mom. RESPECT LITTLE BROTHER RESPECT
When my dad screams at my mom he takes my dads side
FUCKING IDIOT!
he will probably grow up like my dad. FUCKTARD
CANT STAND HIS STUPID FACE
HIS STUPID ACTIONS
HIS GESTURES
HIS VOIICE!
I JUST HAD THE URGE TO FUCKING GO OVER TO THE NEXT ROOM AND PUNCH THE SHIT OUT OFF HIM LIKE THEM GOOD OL' TIMES WHEN HE WOULD END UP BLEEDING!
BUT...... I decided to take deep breaths and not let his idiotic ways get to me. Im better than this......
Sometimes i wish i didnt have a little brother but there are times that i take it back.
WHAT THE FUCK !
UGHH
he is such an asshole
he protects my dad and gives him praise for stupid things like yelling at my mom
he makes my mom pamper him HOW OLD IS HE? 4? FUCK NO HE IS 14!!
he thinks he can do w.e he wants like come in my room and turn off my laptop IN FRONT OF MY FACE! that really pushes my BIG RED BUTTON!
He talks back to my mom. RESPECT LITTLE BROTHER RESPECT
When my dad screams at my mom he takes my dads side
FUCKING IDIOT!
he will probably grow up like my dad. FUCKTARD
- Location:room
- Mood:
FUCK YOU! - Music:sound of my fist meeting my bro's face
I'm here thinking about stuff and I just had a good conversation with marii about how we are soo happy that we met. IM SO THANKFUL TO MATH NOW AND MENDEZ'S SEATING ARRANGEMENTS!! LMAOO
well this is how it went.======
I get to class and math is the first class and we each have a seat assigned to us. and i see that melissa and alicia are separated and im all around guys until marii walks in and sits down. i see that shes wearing diff. shoes and stuff and i think she had her pink extensions. and even tho she was a 10th grader i was intimidated but i was like " oh shit man im stuck between guys and billy and me havent talked in forever and he has friends and he wont want to talk to me" and then i looked at marii and i was like " come on talk to her say hi or something" and then she turned around and she asked us something but billy couldnt answer and I did and she was sooo nice and then from that moment on i kne i could talk to her cuz she was sooo nice and then we got into groups and talked. man if she wasnt there i would die.
its sad that i just have one more year with her. but that doesnt mean it ends.
i love you marii!
and believe it or not mendez did something awesome and i have to thank her for XD
well this is how it went.======
I get to class and math is the first class and we each have a seat assigned to us. and i see that melissa and alicia are separated and im all around guys until marii walks in and sits down. i see that shes wearing diff. shoes and stuff and i think she had her pink extensions. and even tho she was a 10th grader i was intimidated but i was like " oh shit man im stuck between guys and billy and me havent talked in forever and he has friends and he wont want to talk to me" and then i looked at marii and i was like " come on talk to her say hi or something" and then she turned around and she asked us something but billy couldnt answer and I did and she was sooo nice and then from that moment on i kne i could talk to her cuz she was sooo nice and then we got into groups and talked. man if she wasnt there i would die.
its sad that i just have one more year with her. but that doesnt mean it ends.
i love you marii!
and believe it or not mendez did something awesome and i have to thank her for XD
Marii betch (10:07:21 PM) : aww
Marii betch (10:07:21 PM) : :3
Marii betch (10:07:23 PM) : mami
Marii betch (10:07:25 PM) : next yearr
Marii betch (10:07:30 PM) : i wants to have lunch with youuu
Marii betch (10:07:33 PM) : since your leaving meee
Marii betch (10:07:34 PM) : ):
Sgn3753 (10:07:46 PM) : -cries- DONT THINK ABOUT THAT!!
Marii betch (10:08:10 PM) : okis pero yo quiero tener lunch contigo
Sgn3753 (10:08:57 PM) : of courseeeee alwayss each dayyy for the rest of my senior year. and and then on the days that i can i can bring u food to school and shit on ur senior year. we could have our own ditch day 
wen i is in college
Sgn3753 (10:10:43 PM) : look at my facebook status
Marii betch (10:13:02 PM) : kk
Marii betch (10:13:17 PM) : awww
Marii betch (10:13:18 PM) : omg
Marii betch (10:13:19 PM) : yess
Marii betch (10:13:19 PM) : :3
Marii betch (10:13:24 PM) : and let me check hold on.
Sgn3753 (10:13:37 PM) : kk
Sgn3753 (10:13:38 PM) : :3
Marii betch (10:15:49 PM) : aww
Marii betch (10:15:52 PM) : ily too mannn
Marii betch (10:15:57 PM) : mi mami
;33
;33
Sgn3753 (10:16:28 PM) : -XD <<< the faceee
Marii betch (10:16:37 PM) : i know
Marii betch (10:16:38 PM) : hhaha
Marii betch (10:16:42 PM) : that kid gabriel
Sgn3753 (10:16:59 PM) : yesh he will forever be our inside joke and he wont even know it
Sgn3753 (10:17:00 PM) : lolol
Sgn3753 (10:17:16 PM) : that day we couldnt stop laughin man i thought i was goin to die of laughter
Sgn3753 (10:17:39 PM) : u kno -_- we are both goin to die of laughter one day its clearly a sign
Marii betch (10:18:09 PM) : XD
Marii betch (10:18:10 PM) : hahaha
Marii betch (10:18:17 PM) : and that day that we showed
Marii betch (10:18:19 PM) : melissa
Marii betch (10:18:25 PM) : MY KEEACK
Sgn3753 (10:18:38 PM) : LMAOO
Sgn3753 (10:18:42 PM) : she was so funny
Marii betch (10:19:01 PM) : i know
Marii betch (10:19:04 PM) : she never said it right
Sgn3753 (10:19:26 PM) : she stil doesnt
Marii betch (10:19:33 PM) : xD
Sgn3753 (10:23:15 PM) : good timess good timesss
Marii betch (10:23:22 PM) : sii :/
Marii betch (10:23:31 PM) : too bad we're not gonna have classes next year
Sgn3753 (10:23:38 PM) : i easily love ppl lol. it took like 2 weeks for me to loves uuuu
Marii betch (10:23:48 PM) : really?
Marii betch (10:23:49 PM) : :33
Marii betch (10:23:50 PM) : aww
Marii betch (10:23:51 PM) : i knowww
Marii betch (10:23:54 PM) : you were soo sweet
Marii betch (10:23:57 PM) : and everyone else
Marii betch (10:23:58 PM) : were assholes
Marii betch (10:23:59 PM) : o_o.
Sgn3753 (10:24:08 PM) : ugh stupid everyone else
Sgn3753 (10:24:42 PM) : im glad u turned around n asked me and billy something i do not remember. lol
Marii betch (10:24:54 PM) : yeah i was nervous to ask you guys
Marii betch (10:25:00 PM) : i just swallowed the fear
Marii betch (10:25:03 PM) : and turned around
Marii betch (10:25:04 PM) : D:
Sgn3753 (10:25:07 PM) : lol u are brave
Sgn3753 (10:25:27 PM) : im goin to think of u next year wen im stuck in classes with assholes .
Sgn3753 (10:25:35 PM) : but u didnt seem nervous lol
Sgn3753 (10:26:08 PM) : wen u asked and talked to us. i instantly wanted to be ur friend.
Marii betch (10:26:11 PM) : i know cuz i seem alot of things lol
Marii betch (10:26:17 PM) : haha
Marii betch (10:26:19 PM) : :33
Marii betch (10:26:23 PM) : i saw you were really nice
Marii betch (10:26:26 PM) : and at that moment
Marii betch (10:26:28 PM) : i was like
Marii betch (10:26:35 PM) : -pheww- i found a friend =D
Sgn3753 (10:26:43 PM) : omg ! me toooo
Sgn3753 (10:27:14 PM) : because even tho i sat next to billy i really was separated from ppl i kne. like red andmelissa and me n billy stopped talkin in sophomore year and it was weird
Sgn3753 (10:28:09 PM) : and like he had his friends n shit. and wen mendez put u there i was like " omg i hope this chick is nice" and then u talked to us and im like "i think i just found a friend "
Sgn3753 (10:28:31 PM) : and wen i saw u were in my good in my head i was dancing lolol
Marii betch (10:29:03 PM) : XD
Marii betch (10:29:06 PM) : lmao.
Marii betch (10:29:08 PM) : and the best thing
Marii betch (10:29:14 PM) : was that we wer in the same group.
Sgn3753 (10:29:35 PM) : lol yea i meant to say group but i said good lolol
Marii betch (10:30:11 PM) : XD
Marii betch (10:30:13 PM) : oh ok
Marii betch (10:30:14 PM) : :B
Sgn3753 (10:30:28 PM) : THIS CALLS FOR AN LJ MOMENTT!!
Marii betch (10:31:31 PM) : OMGGG
Marii betch (10:31:33 PM) : YES!!
Marii betch (10:31:35 PM) : IM GOING NAOO
Marii betch (10:31:36 PM) : :3
Sgn3753 (10:31:47 PM) : IMMA COPY N PASTE THIS BIATCH AND WRITE LO.OL.
Marii betch (10:32:09 PM) : awww
Marii betch (10:32:11 PM) : yesh me too
Marii betch (10:32:12 PM) : XD
Sgn3753 (10:32:14 PM) : :3
- Location:room
- Mood:
FUCKKK YEAH!! - Music:don francisco presenta. i think lol
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